Thursday, April 19, 2007
that we've neglected her,
not helped her when she asked for it.
her post makes me think.
hmmm...
did i really not help her?
i wonder.
all i remember,
(and having the short-term memory i have)
is that i was always being myself.
i treasure past friends as much as i treasure the present ones.
altho the present ones are not really friends but rather classmates and i don't think i've reached the point of treasuring them yet.
i don't remember abandoning her,
unless she can come up with incidents to remind me.
but then again,
i guess i din do much to help her.
but,
i really do not know how to help.
i mean,
seriously.
i say that everytime someone comes to me for help.
i'll honestly say that i'm a good listener for you to shout your problems at.
(but pls do not direct them at me and blame me for your problems)
but i'm not good at solving them because well.
i'm still the...
hmmm...
not resilient,
not confident,
not mature,
not aware,
about the understanding and forgiving part i dunno how to describe myself.
because i don't understand complicated stuff.
there's nothing for her to be sorry for.
i mean,
if you want to type it down,
then type it down.
since you already said that you're not going to regret doing it,
then don't apologise for it.
unless you wan to contradict yourself.
and since part of it is true,
as in me not being able to help you,
shouldn't i be apologising instead?
altho you would most probably think that i'm doing it for the sake of doing it.
unfortunately,
i'm a simple-minded person and i can't get the 100% of what you're trying to tell me in your post.
believe it,
i failed my lit assignment.
yes, even after having your help.
maybe i'm just not cut out for lit.
anyway.
i didn't abandon you like a doll.
i just...
didn't know how to help you that's all.
i mean,
i'm trying to figure out how to help myself too.
we all are.
posted at 11:39 PM
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