Thursday, April 19, 2007
that we've neglected her,
not helped her when she asked for it.
her post makes me think.
hmmm...
did i really not help her?
i wonder.
all i remember,
(and having the short-term memory i have)
is that i was always being myself.
i treasure past friends as much as i treasure the present ones.
altho the present ones are not really friends but rather classmates and i don't think i've reached the point of treasuring them yet.
i don't remember abandoning her,
unless she can come up with incidents to remind me.
but then again,
i guess i din do much to help her.
but,
i really do not know how to help.
i mean,
seriously.
i say that everytime someone comes to me for help.
i'll honestly say that i'm a good listener for you to shout your problems at.
(but pls do not direct them at me and blame me for your problems)
but i'm not good at solving them because well.
i'm still the...
hmmm...
not resilient,
not confident,
not mature,
not aware,
about the understanding and forgiving part i dunno how to describe myself.
because i don't understand complicated stuff.
there's nothing for her to be sorry for.
i mean,
if you want to type it down,
then type it down.
since you already said that you're not going to regret doing it,
then don't apologise for it.
unless you wan to contradict yourself.
and since part of it is true,
as in me not being able to help you,
shouldn't i be apologising instead?
altho you would most probably think that i'm doing it for the sake of doing it.
unfortunately,
i'm a simple-minded person and i can't get the 100% of what you're trying to tell me in your post.
believe it,
i failed my lit assignment.
yes, even after having your help.
maybe i'm just not cut out for lit.
anyway.
i didn't abandon you like a doll.
i just...
didn't know how to help you that's all.
i mean,
i'm trying to figure out how to help myself too.
we all are.
posted at 11:39 PM
--R--U--K--I--A--
Monday, March 26, 2007
ohmannnn.
i really really really really really really REALLY miss sr...
*sniff*
mel misa brother honey jerome jason sam lam mao2 amos clara vanessa janice wei kiat jon don dingjie min ling joanne hui yi ain syed alicia matilda lao da art room piano EVERYONE IN 1AO8 BISMARCK GANG SLC SC SRJC!
*cries*
ohmannnn.
that time i crashed sr,
i was still thinking.
"will mel and misa like ignore me and don't notice me or just think that i'm back and that's all?"
and when i walked in...
...
...
..
.
.
"SHERMAINE!!! OMG YOU'RE BACK!!!"
XD
ohmannn! i love you guys. girls. whatever. >_<
i waved at lao da, or rather brother waved at lao da,
but lao da nvr see.
wave so long can!
he keep turning back and look at chio bu. *shakes head*
just like him...
srjc rocks mannn
it's so lively thereeeeee...
it's CRAZY...
*sniff*
xiao hun hun.. senior ka kia... gang activity coord.. lao da.. gang outing.. alliance..
xiao lao da... gang fight... amos owing us dinner.. siao slc.. mao2 the gorilla and lao da the chimpanzee.. brother... piano girl.. srjcians need counselling..
i miss those terms.
T-T
srjc~~~
all for you~~~~~~~
*sniff*
i damn miss you guys mannn.
posted at 6:52 AM
--R--U--K--I--A--
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
ohman,
i'm never doing it again.
if next time pple tell me,
"OMG, i'm looking SO forward to vdae!"
i'm going to glare at them and walk away.
I MEAN.
i've been sitting at the benches from 1-7pm,
designing OTHER pple's love letters.
LOLx.
ok,
i'm not complaining, seriously.
it's good exp.
now we know how vdae works.
*shrug*
well,
it's quite fun.
pasting of straw hearts and glueing ribbons and roses..
looking at the accomplished and finished cards give you a sense of
"WoW. i'm great. i did all these and pple are buying them." feeling.
the negative thing:
you know that noone's giving you anything.
posted at 10:50 PM
--R--U--K--I--A--
Wednesday, January 31, 2007
Kaen. Tokiya. Miki.
those who dun understand, siam,
and leave me alone.
that one special person who understands,
well,
you're lucky, i guess.
*shrug*
IT'S MY LIFE, DAMNIT.
I WUN LET ANYONE DESTROY IT.
oh yes,
i DO NOT,
i WILL NOT,
change for ANYONE.
so?
issit wrong?
what am i;
something to entertain pple with issit.
the wall that i'm building around myself is not thick eough issit,
FINE.
i'll make it so thick noone will understand me.
since,
knowing you pple is like listening to a very nice japanese song..
it's so nice i can fall in love with the singer and the song,
but when i know what the song is about,
it's a totally diff thing.
never judge a book by it's cover eh?
bring it on man.
you wan to push me down?
Boku wa dare yori mo tsuyoi,
MADA MADA DANE, YAROU!
posted at 10:50 PM
--R--U--K--I--A--
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
omg.
this fanfic is so damn nice.
sorry la!
who say i am a ichiruki fanatic..
I SUPPORT BYAKUYA!
BYAKUYA YOU ROCK!
THANKS FOR BETTING SO MUCH MAN!
XD
go read and you'll know.
http://www.fanfiction.net/s/3301220/1/
posted at 11:02 PM
--R--U--K--I--A--
Monday, January 15, 2007
wahahahaha!
school sort of rocks..with new frens, DUH.
like now.
i'm influenced by dear melissa 1 and melissa 3 to join cosplay.
>=)
I'M DOING GINTA FOR EOY o7!!!
XD
and edward for cosfest, muahahaha...
now my mum keep asking me why i save so much money, LOLx.
SRJC has a piano too!
surprisingly all the pianists in jcs are guys.
with the exception of me.
*grinns*
I KNOW HOW TO PLAY HOUKI BOSHI LE!!
YAYYY!
i rock.
*slaps myself*
okk.
melissa 1 aka misa,
melissa 3 aka mel.
both like to bully me.
i'm SO bully-able.
LOLX
they like to use a phrase against me sehhh
white specs, my HEAD ah.
i wearing red specs ah.
changing to black soon ah.
white specs white specs...
and like misa's fren said,
MISA CAN'T KILL ME CAUSE SHE NEEDS ME.
MUAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!
ok.
*slaps myself*
i wan join shooting!
shooting!
shooting!
air pistol may not rock as much as .22,
BUT SHOOTING ROCKS!!
WOOHOO!!!
XD
yellow wig..yellow wig...
someone be nice to me and bring to go chinatown to shop for materials lehhx.
i can't wait to get started.
=)
*beams*
posted at 11:06 PM
--R--U--K--I--A--
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
hmmmm.
paris.
the ONLY exciting and nice thing about paris was the hotel we stayed in.
OMG.
YOU WUN BELIEVE IT.
XD
*starts squealing*
you know you know
the tour group
was at the basement lobby
waiting to chk in
and then
AND THEN
XD
*tries to contain excitement*
A WHOLE GROUP OF JAP GUYS WALKED IN.
haha.
pardon me...
i mean
there was this whole level
whole group
of high school jap guys staying at the hotel
and believe me
they looked so...
*if you know me well you know you wun be listening to what i'm saying due to high frequency squeals and super fast talking*
i mean
no 2 guys looked the same
their hair was like
OMG
red
brown
yellow
gold
bleached
and their clothes are like
BLACK.
RED.
the is-this-really-paris? kind of feeling.
the i-feel-like-i'm-in-japan thingy.
the females all looked the same...
same hair
same style.
and pple say girls are more vain than the guys.
tsk
haha
nicholas says in japan the girls are more vain
*shrug*
anyway, when the guys came in
the girls in the tour group (including me lah) were like
*starry eyed*
wowwwwww
and the guys in the tour group were like
*rolling their eyes*
"they look like lions."
WHATEVER.
THEY LOOKED SO COOL.
THE HOTEL LIFTS WERE FULLY OCCUPIED BY THEM.
so much so that we had to wait 10mins for a lift.
*pause*
*squeals again*
HAHA.
i'm SO sorry.
and, paris hotel has a PIANO.
a BLACK
GRAND
PIANO.
you know what i do when i see a PIANO?
oh yeah
the place reminded me of ouran high!
XD
the staircases!
the curtains!
the marble!
XD
OMG.
OMG.
in the morning
cause we go to the breakfast bar early
TOO early
the bar haven open yet.
so my family and nicholas and his mum and the tour guide were sitting at the lobby sofa.
then i saw the piano.
then i joke and say
"eh. i go play piano ah."
the tour guide was like
"you go ask the guard lohx. if he say yes you go lahx, anyway we need entertainment. if he say no then you come back lohx. nvm de la."
i went near there
i read the signs near the piano
i went to the gallery near the piano and looked at the stuff inside
i took a walk round the piano
and came back
my mum ask if i got play.
i say no.
then she was like
WHAT?! you walked around the piano for ten minutes but you nvr play?!
stop wasting your time!
then i was like
ok fine ok fine!
i went slowlyyyy to the guard.
and i wanted to ask
"excuse me, can i play the piano for just 5 minutes..."
but before i even said 'the' he was nodding his head and smiling and saying
"yes, sure! sure!"
i think it was the HAPPINESS that was flooding my face
or the guard probably noticed me pacing ard the piano for ten minutes.
and so,
i went to play.
BUT THAT'S NOT ALL MAN.
the most wonderful part came after that.
but too sad.
i kana scolding liao.
next time cont.
SEE YOU PEEPS!
XD
posted at 11:25 PM
--R--U--K--I--A--